Wow. I felt the Holy Spirit's presence as he spoke those words ---so thick I could've cut it with a knife.Tomorrow, I embark on a new adventure. I will return to the workforce after eleven years of being away. I keep telling myself that it's an adventure - with hopes of convincing myself that it's going to be just that. In all honesty - I have very mixed emotions. It means leaving Olivia for long periods of time. She won't have me there in the mornings to get her off to school....that time we spend each morning has always been so precious and it breaks my heart, even though I know she's in good hands between her sisters and her Dad...but I'm really going to miss spending those morning moments with her. And then, when school is out...there will be long days spent apart --not so bad while school is still in session. The fact is, being a stay-at-home-Mom has been one of the biggest blessings of my life and I'm going to miss it very, very much.
And I'm going to miss spending time with Brillo Man. Even if it's just sitting together in the living room, while he plays Scrabble on the computer...or me cooking him dinner, or getting him a glass of ice water...He did, after all, just break his ankle and is supposed to be taking care of it and staying off of it...(yeah, right). But with me not here, who is going to nag him to use his walker or his crutches?
However, I also believe that my going back to work is part of God's plan for this season of my life. He opened the door and provided the job - right on time - right when it was needed. Forget the fact that I haven't looked at a white blood cell in over ten years and I'm not sure I'll remember what chromatin pattern goes with what cell and forget the fact that I can't remember if Staph. Epi. is coagulase positive or negative and forget the fact that I have no idea what the normal values of any of the liver enzymes are... In spite of it all - God has me strategically placed. There is something that He needs me to do. Some life that he needs me to impact. Some heart that needs to hear of His love.
So, I embrace this new adventure with great anticipation - knowing that I'm going to be blessed as I share His love....in whatever way He has planned. And I'll enjoy wearing my hunter green scrubs, even though green is NOT my color, all the while being grateful that I don't have to dress in "dress up" clothes! Scrubs are so much more comfortable!I covet your prayers....
I'll keep you posted!
the storehouse of his bounty,
to send rain on your land in season
and to bless all the work of your hands.
You will lend to many nations but will borrow from none.
-Deuteronomy 28:12
6 comments:
I've been thinking about you starting your new job...with great anticipation of all the lives your going to touch. I truly believe that God has "strategically placed" you for this period of time in your life to effect change in the lives of strangers. Because He has ordered this in your life, He will take care of all those other concerns you have. I don't know how long this season will be, but I know that He will be with you every step of the way - even when you feel you have to focus your eyes to see Him better, He will be right there with you. Blessing on you my dear friend!
you are prayed over and surrounded by angels. i understand every single reservation you've listed and i hear your heart. and yet i know full well that these steps are ordered by the same God of those sweet mommy mornings. come back and tell us how it all went, we're waiting!
We serve an awesome God, and He will be right with you as you return to work. So will my prayers.
How'd that first week go? Been praying for you!!
been praying for you, how is the new job going?
how is it going? I bet you are doing awesome!!
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